Change or not?

Do you ever wish you could go back and change one thing in your life? Just to make it different? I know I’ve thought about it, but to be honest if I had the chance to change something in my life, I more than likely wouldn’t, the reason it’s happened is because that’s the way it was meant to be. Do I really want to change it? I’d have to think long and hard before I did…because just changing one tiny thing could change everything, instead of just that one tiny thing you thought about changing. Sometimes things happen that never should have, or at least you feel that way, but in the long run it might end up helping you. It will definitely end up turning you into the person that you are, or are going to be. My life’s not perfect but it’s good, I like the way it is, some things I don’t like but hey nothings perfect. So I try to enjoy it, and just deal with the tuff stuff.
It’s not always easy though but you just gotta try, and when you feel like quitting keep trying. It’s not going to be easy, ‘cause life’s a bitch (excuse my language). But if life was easy…well what kind of people would we be? I can’t tell ya ‘cause I don’t know… but let’s keep dealing with the stuff Life puts us through, and try to have fun while we’re at it.

Sad moments

The pain and sorrow of lose, will never slacken. No matter how many times, you go through it’ll still rip a new hole in your chest every time. Make you think of everything you’ve lost or done wrong, feel alone and lost. But the pain will subside we just have to fight it out. If only it were possible to take away the pain others feel, help the pain to pass more quickly. But just being there for them will have to do, so if you know someone who’s hurting or feels alone let them know you’re there for them, and help them as best you can. Even if they say they don’t need it, stay there anyway. Let them know they’re cared for, and that they’re not alone.
Those moments of lose can tear us apart from the inside, making us cry and wonder if anyone even sees our pain. It makes us wish that we’d never been born, or were living in a different time or way. It’s hard to fight through it, it’s hard to know if things will get better, and it makes us sad and feel alone. We just need to find what makes us happy and try our best to escape the pain, learn to live, to fight. No matter how hard it seems at the time it can get better it might take a while or a really long time, but the fighting is worth it, it’ll make you a stronger better you, and teach you about yourself. So try, even if you want to give in push that thought away and keep going. <3

About yourself

It’s hard to tell people about yourself, because there’s always so much to say, your dreams, likes, dislikes, wants, what you want to do for your future, and more. I think it’s almost impossible to tell someone everything about yourself, and if they did know everything about you then where’s the surprise? It’d also be kind of weird if they knew everything, because there should always be a little mystery. And some things you don’t want people to know, it might be something bad, or just a little memory that makes you happy and you don’t want to tell anyone. And some list are just too long to say, or it’s hard to say. I’m kind of off track with what I’m supposed to be writing but hey sometimes you just have to write what you feel or think; normally I just let myself go when I write. I might have been planning on writing something but normally I end up typing something totally different, sometimes you just get a flow and you have to let yourself go and follow it. Sometimes people are just too up-tight to let themselves go, or try not to go with the flow, everything must be planned and orderly. I’d rather have a spontaneous moment than a planned one…if you plan everything you can never enjoy the surprise of something that just happens. Anyway…sorry if I’ve lost you, I’ll try to stay on track.
Okay about myself.
I’m a music lover I like anything basically, give me a good song that’s what I like. Rock and music I can dance to are at the top of the list.
I love animals, wolves and red tailed hawks are in my top favorites.
I love to sketch/draw, I’m thinking about becoming an artist and writer, I just love to write and sketch, when I write I feel like I can say exactly how I feel and I don’t care if anyone doesn’t like it, I don’t even have to let people read it, and when you write you can be whoever, do whatever, or be where ever you want to be. Writing gives you a freedom like nothings else can.
The best way to get to know me really is to talk to me, ask me questions, or be there when I need someone to talk to. I’ve had people that I felt I could trust and they said I could trust them and that ended up being a complete lie, so I’ve been hurt, I find it hard to trust people, and if I do end up trusting you and you break my trust it’s almost impossible to earn it back, and I’ll never trust you as I had before.
But I can’t complain everyone ends up getting hurt in life, pain is part of life even if we don’t like it, but it’s easy to feel like no one else feels the way you do, you might think no one knows how much you hurt, but people feel the pain, it’s just most people don’t talk about it. I’m one of those people, I’d rather not bother people with how I feel, I’d rather bottle it up and hide it than show how much something hurts, what someone says might be like a slap across the face, but I’ll just take it and hide the pain and move on, but if people keep picking at me I can only take so much…sometimes once I’ve taken so much I’ll explode the next time someone thinks they can say crap to me without me doing anything.
It’s not always like that but most of the time it is, I don’t like to hurt people but if they hurt me sometimes I just can’t help it, and I don’t understand why people try to break other people by saying the meanest crap they can to them or about them. It really pisses me off, but I can’t seem to do anything about it. If people were more considerate and not such ass holes we might not have the problem with people wanting to end their lives… anyway I’m off track again sorry. But really, if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t freakin’ say it. I don’t see the point in saying things to purposely hurt people.
Anyway, again sorry, I’m normally a mellow person who sometime has a crazy, wild, hyper side to them; when you have a problem I try to help as best I can, if someone talks to me about something they don’t want people to know, then I don’t see the point in telling everyone something that’s not mine to tell. Well, this list is getting really long already and I’ve hardly even talked about things I like, I’ll have to do that in my next post.(Sorry Maikeru)