About yourself

It’s hard to tell people about yourself, because there’s always so much to say, your dreams, likes, dislikes, wants, what you want to do for your future, and more. I think it’s almost impossible to tell someone everything about yourself, and if they did know everything about you then where’s the surprise? It’d also be kind of weird if they knew everything, because there should always be a little mystery. And some things you don’t want people to know, it might be something bad, or just a little memory that makes you happy and you don’t want to tell anyone. And some list are just too long to say, or it’s hard to say. I’m kind of off track with what I’m supposed to be writing but hey sometimes you just have to write what you feel or think; normally I just let myself go when I write. I might have been planning on writing something but normally I end up typing something totally different, sometimes you just get a flow and you have to let yourself go and follow it. Sometimes people are just too up-tight to let themselves go, or try not to go with the flow, everything must be planned and orderly. I’d rather have a spontaneous moment than a planned one…if you plan everything you can never enjoy the surprise of something that just happens. Anyway…sorry if I’ve lost you, I’ll try to stay on track.
Okay about myself.
I’m a music lover I like anything basically, give me a good song that’s what I like. Rock and music I can dance to are at the top of the list.
I love animals, wolves and red tailed hawks are in my top favorites.
I love to sketch/draw, I’m thinking about becoming an artist and writer, I just love to write and sketch, when I write I feel like I can say exactly how I feel and I don’t care if anyone doesn’t like it, I don’t even have to let people read it, and when you write you can be whoever, do whatever, or be where ever you want to be. Writing gives you a freedom like nothings else can.
The best way to get to know me really is to talk to me, ask me questions, or be there when I need someone to talk to. I’ve had people that I felt I could trust and they said I could trust them and that ended up being a complete lie, so I’ve been hurt, I find it hard to trust people, and if I do end up trusting you and you break my trust it’s almost impossible to earn it back, and I’ll never trust you as I had before.
But I can’t complain everyone ends up getting hurt in life, pain is part of life even if we don’t like it, but it’s easy to feel like no one else feels the way you do, you might think no one knows how much you hurt, but people feel the pain, it’s just most people don’t talk about it. I’m one of those people, I’d rather not bother people with how I feel, I’d rather bottle it up and hide it than show how much something hurts, what someone says might be like a slap across the face, but I’ll just take it and hide the pain and move on, but if people keep picking at me I can only take so much…sometimes once I’ve taken so much I’ll explode the next time someone thinks they can say crap to me without me doing anything.
It’s not always like that but most of the time it is, I don’t like to hurt people but if they hurt me sometimes I just can’t help it, and I don’t understand why people try to break other people by saying the meanest crap they can to them or about them. It really pisses me off, but I can’t seem to do anything about it. If people were more considerate and not such ass holes we might not have the problem with people wanting to end their lives… anyway I’m off track again sorry. But really, if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t freakin’ say it. I don’t see the point in saying things to purposely hurt people.
Anyway, again sorry, I’m normally a mellow person who sometime has a crazy, wild, hyper side to them; when you have a problem I try to help as best I can, if someone talks to me about something they don’t want people to know, then I don’t see the point in telling everyone something that’s not mine to tell. Well, this list is getting really long already and I’ve hardly even talked about things I like, I’ll have to do that in my next post.(Sorry Maikeru)